[Verse 1]
There you stood in disbelief
Trying all you could to see through these lies
And every word that I could breathe
Would find you more inclined to leave, but I tried
I tried
And knowing what I've done to you
With every thought you suffer through
My heart as black as evil can
And everything I could have been
Erased by what I wanted then
I couldn't think a lesser man
[Pre-chorus]
All the delicate ways
That have deepened our graves
My apology pales
[Chorus]
Oh, all the pain in your eyes
My regrets have never known such sorrow
Oh, all the shame that you hide
Resolutions are the same tomorrow
[Verse 2]
So now I reap what I have sown
And any rapture I had shown has bled dry
And I walked the streets alone
Accepting the pain I'd never known, as you died
You died
Then I hurt myself to see it too
To feel the knife I put in you
My heart as broken as my ways
I never should've let it pass
This fall was never meant to last
The reason gone and damage stays
[Pre-chorus]
All the delicate ways
That have deepened our graves
My apology pales
[Chorus - 2x]
[Spoken part]
"I am sorry
Just what do you think you are doing?
My mind is gone
I can feel it.
Goodbye"
[Bridge]
Count the cost of your vile means, solace comes to less (4x)
[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus - 2x]
Oh, the pain in your eyes (the delicate ways)
My regrets have never known such sorrow (I deepened our graves)
Oh, the shame that you hide (the delicate ways)
Resolutions are the same tomorrow (I deepened our graves)
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Sometimes nostalgia fills me in and I start wondering about the past through songs, videos or texts. Some months ago, while doing this and seeing what I have posted so far in this blog, I saw a name that brought a smile to my face, because it's a song from a band I love and the lyrics have profound meaning. I first wrote about it on July 24 in 2011 (in Portuguese, though). And here I go re-visiting it without reading what I wrote until I finish writing this 2020 version.
Everyone, at some point in their lives, has made someone upset. Being from us or toward us, with words or actions. Unfortunately this is the way the world goes. But, from the moment it happened, there's a way to fix this mistake. Apologising.
According to the Cambridge Dictionary, to apologise means: to tell someone that you are sorry for having done something that has caused problems or unhappiness for them. Ryan Claro, the singer and songwriter for this song, said he wrote it as an apology to someone he'd hurt. That's a nice way to say you're sorry.
During this pandemic we're going through, our emotions are under our skins. Everything that is said or seen can be a reason to get upset about. We miss our routine and normal life. It's okay not to be okay. But we can't rely on this and keep on hurting the others' feelings. We don't like to be on the hurt side. Forgive in the same way you'd like to be forgiven. Act as you would like to be treated. I know sometimes we keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over again, but it's something we must change.
Also, forgiving has a healing power for both sides. The burden on the shoulders of remembering what has happened, the pressure of the thoughts... they're all gone and you're free! The Bible mentions this healing and comforting power:
I am not overstating it when I say that the man who caused all the trouble hurt all of you more than he hurt me. Most of you opposed him, and that was punishment enough. Now, however, it is time to forgive and comfort him. Otherwise he may be overcome by discouragement. So I urge you now to reaffirm your love for him. When you forgive this man, I forgive him, too. And when I forgive whatever needs to be forgiven, I do so with Christ’s authority for your benefit.
(2 Corinthians 2:5-8,10)
Hooking once more on "changing ways", the last SMS I wrote, I mentioned about king David, who committed many mistakes. But when asking for God's forgiveness, he knew he was doing wrong and decided to change his path.
Changing paths means trying to do things differently. Using the sentence "I'm sorry" as an excuse to repeat the vile means only brings a deeper hole in the feelings. It won't be different and the resolution will be the same at the end of the day. Our heart is evil by nature because of the fallen man, but it doesn't mean we must accept this and never seek changes.
Be the one to start and change instead of waiting for the other part. Be the one to bring solace. Be one to forgive. Forgiving is a healing process, mostly for the one forgiving. Although the healing process is beautiful, we will reap what we have sown. Forgive before it's too late. Don't let the lack of apologies deepen in the grave.
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